Wednesday, June 07, 2006&&
current song: geu ri o.om do anh dw.ae get.jyo by 7.kh.s is gettin more like-able in the show sm.il.e again. while ldg's evil/pi.s.sed off face is gettin irritatin. on the other hand, ljw is gettin cuter(acie muz be shoutin an.io! here). but i realli think he is gettin cuter but ive a feelin he might turn evil at some pt. sianz.
had a really strange dream yest. first time hafin this sort of dream. it's lyk a w.a..R breakin out in s.g. scary. firstly, the plc where it happened is weird.. it's juz some big compound lyk an empty sch where everybody stays. den it started off with me seein a bolt of lig.hting strike down a tree n it rolled onto the main rd. i was juz infront of this huge window when i saw that happening. then next was a pl.a.ne headin towards our buil.ding. it seemed lyk it was gona crashed into it when suddenly the pil.ot managed to gear it upwards..avoidin the buildin. besides this, there were oso other pl.an.es ard that somehow looked lyk they've lost control but tryin their best not to crash into any buil.dings. they're lyk doin those some.rsaul.ts. by this time i was super scared le la..cant realli rem how the surroundin ppl reacted.. but i was searchin for my d.a.d den next we went to look for m0.m. n best thing was.. she was sittin at some table with my aunt drinkin ko.pi. not exactly happy but neither is it anxious/pan.icky. next was to search for my b.ro.n somehow i manage to find him n wat was he doin? sittin in one corner calmly n usin the phone. it seemed lyk i was the only panicky one. den in between findin them.. i would walk past those huge windows whereby i would see pl.anes gg crazy outside.. i could even hear noise.. lyk ligh.tnin bo.lt sound n i cant rem wat.
after findin everyone..cant rem wat happened next.. only rem that i wanted to take a bath. i duno how did the to.ilet appear la.. n y im takin a bath at this time... but i din have clean clo.thes with me.. so i wanted to walk to the rm that i was in right at the startin to take my cl.othes. walked out n i found the hallway empty.. duno where everybody went..n the skies were cleared of pla.nes le.my mum came along with me.. den suddenly a hel.icop.ter approached.. n somehow the buil.din doesnt haf windows anymore.. coz the he.li came in.. it's lyk some en.em.y he.li coz we were so frightened when we saw it.. immed tried to hide but there's no gd hidin plc.. ended up behind this mini wall n i could feel that the h.el.i was approachin us real close.
n then...i woke up with my heart thumpin super fast. could recall the dre.am quite clearly n i was wonderin whether it was morn or still nigh.t.tim.e.. could see light outside my rm n my da.d's cou.ghin. n so i thot it was still ni.ght.time.. didnt lyk that idea coz i was feelin quite scared. haven realli recover yet. den i decided to open the cu.rtains n realised it was morn le. relieved. n then i fell back aslp.weird.
i haven been watchin any w.a..R related movie n so y did i haf this kinda dream. n i realli hate the feelin of waking up with my hea.rt beatin super fast. cant breathe kinda feelin. n when i close my eyes.. the dream would replay in my mind. scary k. but this beats wakin up in tea.rs. now.. when can i have another dr.eam that will make me smile when i wake up frm it?
"s0metimes letting go is the only way to move forward"
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